The woman of my dreams

From 8-16-10


Just dreamt I was putting fashion together for MIA. She was playing in Cincinnati and I got to design what she wore on stage.

I only remember a few parts of what I had put together. First, I designed these sunglasses that were pink and I put little jewels on the bottom corner of the lenses. I was also putting studs and other things on a jean jacket for her too. I was designing this outfit in this little studio and she kept coming in to check on my progress. I had a limited amount of time.

Waking up

From 8-13-10

Dreamt I was driving home from somewhere on Marshall Ave. and I drove past Chuck mowing lawns. Then I drove past Boris in an SUV after that. So, I turned around to say hi to them. Got there and everyone was hanging out.

There was this girl there named LaCheeny. She knew me but not vice versa. Then there was this older black guy hanging out. I shook hands with him and he had a terrible handshake. Then we went to the basement where we were going to take naps. Then Ciera and Glover were there talking about jeans. I sat there watching them, kind of jealous. There was a baby crying and I kept thinking about what a buzzkill it was.

Then in my dream, I woke up at 11:30am.

Colors and crockpots

From 8-12-10

Dreamt I was moving in with Arnold and someone else. Arnold was the one in charge of getting in touch with the landlord, etc. He was hesitant to give me her number for some reason and I was apprehensive about living with him especially because he has shady friends.
The new place was right next door to the Northside Tavern. I put up my bed; I had to downsize to a twin with a yellow bedspread. My sister was hanging out at the apartment and I was making meatballs in the crockpot. I was going to go on a hike with my mom, but we came back instead.

Creationism

From 9-21-09

Dreamt last night about designing Mother's Day cards with dinosaurs on them.

I need a vacation

From 2-5-10

Dreamt I was going to Jamaica with this guy; he was supposed to be my best friend and he kind of reminded me of Trevor. We bought our tickets, then the night of my show before we were supposed to drive to the airport, he tells me he's not going. It's winter outside and I flip out. I start swerving on the road. I'm yelling and crying and hitting him. I pretty much push him out of the car, which happens to be far from his house.

Then I found out one of my girlfriends wants to come with her mom and a friend. I think it's supposed to be Lynn. I'm super happy and relieved at we decide to go.

At one point in the dream, Sheli is hanging out and wearing the replacement earrings I bought her.

Party time, not so excellent

From 7-19-10

I had a dream about a party at the house I'm about to move into. Ciera was there and in a bad mood. She was getting ready for the party at my house. I remember reorganizing before people got there. I was messing with this box thing that was kind of like my jewelry box that I have in real life. I don't think everything was unpacked from moving.

Also in the dream, I was dating Greg's son. My parents were there for a minute too.

Pine and the foggy forest

From 7-16-10


Dreamt I was in a foggy pine tree forest. I was with my family and Jade was there.

When we were talking about how big the pine trees were, there was this informational video about how they got to be that big. The video was on this single flatscreen tv like an information panel placed on an exhibit in a zoo or museum or something.

The video told us that back in the day when people were cutting down these trees all the time, they would trim the trees and grind down the parts they didn't use in a canal or river. They noticed the pine cones falling into the canal made bigger trees. So, they started dipping them in the canal and planting them. The video showed this hillbilly white bearded guy dipping pine cones in the canal.

When we were leaving the forest, I went with my dad. My family had just bought a new van. He wanted to show me the double safe in the van which was used for the cd player and cds. The combo was 3 and ten pressed down together. I had the new M.I.A. CD with me.

Red carpet and red jacket

From 2-18-10

I dreamt about this convention or awards ceremony. Michael Jackson was there for some special reason. I forget what the event was for specifically, but he was there and supposed to make a speech. I found Michael Jackson and was talking to him. He was real easy to talk to and he liked me because I kept flattering him. I remember our carrying our conversation while walking in a big circle around the ceremony hall that had red carpet.

Conversations in candlelight

From 2-11-10

I dreamt about these Disney character records. There were lots of candles in my dream. I had a candlelit conversation with my mom and someone else was there. The conversation was through candlelight.

In the dream, I kept messing with the candles. I spilled wax all over the back of my dresser.

I was in a store for some reason and a cop was hasseling me. He stole a bag of jelly beans; there were a lot of blue jelly beans in the bag. He and the other people he was with tried to eat them all before the clerk came outside, but she caught them anyway. They (the cop and his friends) were puking outside.

I started to lucid dream and fly away from the situation into another one where Jan was hanging out with two other people. The one I remember the most was the tall black guy because both him and Jan were singing this song on the radio/overhead or whatever. I was cleaning up spilled wax. The tall black guy was wearing purple pants. Jan said that he was "fiance" material. He serenaded her across the laps of the other people at the table we were sitting at.

Daft Punk is playing in my dreams, MY dreams

From 2-19-10

Dreamt that me and my friends were at a Daft Punk concert on this island. Before the show, I was in the ocean swimming. It was night/evening/dusk and the waves kept getting bigger. I was out on a board, floating around. The waves were getting bigger. I kept getting scared that the waves were going to pull me under, but they never did. People on the shore kept telling me to get out. there were tons of seals out by me too. Hundreds everywhere. The waves were so big that the tide tow kept exposing the shore way out far, it seemed like miles. I got back to shore by just riding one of the waves back to shore with the seals kind of protecting me.

Then I went to the Daft Punk concert. It was in this tiki torch bar. I was standing there with Ciera and Leeah. Then I went up front to check out the band and they were on this round platform. There were crazy lights shooting out from the stage of all different colors. They weren't playing any instruments. "Daft Punk" was just this group of random people beating on wood in the mild shape of instruments. I was wondering what was up and they told me they didn't need to actually play their instruments because people didn't care. Then I went back to stand with the girls and they took my phone away from me because Lenny kept trying to text me and they didn't want me to see it. I got real mad a them for it.

Pulling back- a horseback funnel cloud phenomenon

From 3-12-10

In the dream I was in a huge group of people; most noteable were Hansel and Sam. We were at a warehouse like the mockbee and we were leaving. While we were there, we were drinking and talking. It was almost like we were hiding out in a parking garage too.

When we left, everyone piled on this huge bus. Janice was there telling me that Qfact put her on a weird team; complaining about work. Then there was a group of whoever was on the bus.It was 2 girls and 2 guys; I was one of the girls and Hansel was one of the guys. There were also horses; as if we went to a ranch. Hansel kept yelling at me because of the way I was riding the horse. We were riding and this funnel cloud starts to form. We all stop and watch it form in the middle of us. Apparently, this was called "pulling back" and I wasn't supposed to do it; that's why Hansel was yelling at me.

Zach Morris is so dreamy

From 4-17-10

Just dreamt that I met Zach Morris at a movie theater with the whole Saved by the Bell crew! He actually hung out and was talking to me for a minute. He had long soft blond hair. He took a picture with me and squeezed me so close that I accidentally licked his face (hahaha!!!). He was talking to me about how he bets I'm from near the "H-R" border because from the Balkans to Siberia and through Turkey people have a "pivot swivel hip." I walked to see if I could notice what he was talking about and my gait was way different, like I had a pivot and swivel hip, whatever that is. Then he said, "I bet you're from Turkey."

Just then, these dudes pull him away from me to talk to these twins who were anorexic and looked like Heroin addicts. They had dark circles under their eyes and a lot of make up. They were dressed really glam too.

Then I walked to the park with my friends. It was stormy and blustery outside. We were walking down this road past all these cars and boats damaged by the weather. It was dusk or dawn outside, I couldn't tell which.

Bacon and agression

From 5-21-10

Dreamt about a white house. I lived there, and it was in this nicer neighborhood. It had a little screened-in porch.

I was supposed to meet Berta for lunch, but I'd missed her call from being out on the porch so I made a smoothie.

There was tons of bacon on top of my fridge. I threw it all away. None of it was cooked and it smelled rotten. There was so much of it in different containers- foil and plastic.


Then Clark came over. He wanted me to draw a tattoo of a dog and also a pancake and bacon breakfast. So I drew it on with black marker.

Then everyone was coming to my house for poker. It was very stressful. I was really hungry and tons of people were there. Berta and Montel were there. They were going to run to the store and weren't going to ask me if I wanted anything, so I got real mad and said something. It actually got mildly physical and I pushed them. I then told Berta, "You wouldn't be here if it weren't for me."

I kept getting worried about keeping the air inside from escaping out the screen door.

Starting to get blurry

From 5-4-10

My dreams aren't making much sense these days...

I was trying to go to Costa Rica and so was this girl I used to go to school with. It was raining.

Aretha Franklin was there. We were in Langsam Library. I think it was kind of like a fall-out shelter but people worked in there and had stations where they worked their shifts. It was like a desk and whatever equipment you needed to do your job. People in charge would come around and check your stations to see if someone was there. As long as someone was in that spot working, they didn't care.

Waterparks, friends, and families

From 6-3-10

Dreamt about this water park. Each room was a different water sport/activity like water skiing etc. I remember Jerry, Sharon, and Dina there. My family and Dina's family were hanging out together. The water park was in the mall. The people working there moved us from one "stage" to the next. My family was driving some place and my dad and I decided to stop by this abandoned mansion. It was run down, as we could tell from the outsdie. As soon as we stepped in the door, I wanted to leave. I got spooked and thought I'd stepped on glass. Oh yeah, we also shrunk our car so it wouldn't be as noticeable.

Speaking in tongues

From August 2007- for this entry I just marked it with "8-"

I just dreamt that my dad and I had to empty garbage at this place. It was taking forever but it was like a Panera place so we could take the bread and stuff. But, it was like a warehouse with a large pool/place with water. It was really dingy and damp. Bill Murray and Chevy Chase were there and they were doing this skit. They were wearing rain slickers. My dad was helping out. They were speaking to one another in a different language. Then, there was this really rich woman there who I didn't like at all. I kept talking shit

[ there is a break in my notebook from me describing the dream where I wrote really big, "xylophone in my thoughts" ]

to her and kind of flinging around this bag of broken glass. Then this other girl was there too talking about Tony and how they were the couple modeling for this Jose Rum and the latest ad was Tony dressed up like a cross-dresser and he was smiling like a weirdo.

Then in my dream, Annie called me and on my phone it said "Penny." I missed the call and called it back and the voicemail was in German. But, I called her back and she told me it was Monday and she and Dina were going dancing that night. She told me I could come and on Friday that the Brazillian Girls were going to be in town.

There were a lot of languages in my dream because my Dad and Bill Murray were talking in a different language too.

It's science...

From 7/26/07

Dream:
I was with my mom and it seemed like I was younger, maybe around 15. My little brothers and sisters were there too and we were doing a science field trip through this water park. At one point, a giant spider named the Cornucopia was laying its eggs in my bedroom. My mom had to get rid of it.

Later in the dream, we had three little kittens running around and we were near a soccer field where a game was being played. There was also a small road where cars weren't paying attention.* Some cars had run over one of our kittens and a little boy drove off. I cried a lot and we tried to hook it up to the computer. It lived but he was hurt. In the dream we were doing science experie]ments and my mom was trying to show me how to do this computer program.

As a footnote, I'd like to add that the mama spider was laying this huge egg that was black, white, and orange and it looked like this:



*The part about the street by the soccer field kind of reminded me of UC's back roads by University Park apartments and the soccer field.

A dream about dating

From 12/14/09

Dreamt that I had a boyfriend last night. He was really nice. He was white with light brown hair. He was just and average guy- cute but wasn't obviously one thing or another; real neutral looking and feeling. We dated and would see each other pretty much every day. He liked to thrift. I told him about a real good thrift store and we went 30 minutes before it closed. He drove.

At one point, our families were eating dinner at the same restaurant at tables right next to each other. I heard his grandma say something really racist- I think it had something to do with the "N" word. I got really upset and looked over to see my boyfriend squirming and looking distraught, so I didn't say anything to avoid a scene, even though I wanted to make one. Later in the dream, I was hanging out with Jade and we were talking about what a great boyfriend he was and that he gave me space when I needed it because he sensed it.

Later in the dream, I was at his house in the basement. I discovered his family was evil and mine was good, but he was trying to overcome it. Then he made me and a couple of my friends go through a test he made up, but I don't remember what it was. I wasn't taking it serious in the dream.

Another Jason Dream

From 9/10/09

My dreams were super scary last night- one was being chased by Jason in a horror movie setting. I remember peeking out the window to see if he was there. Also in the dream, I stabbed him multiple times in the chest and throat but he wouldn't die. He would also trick me by acting like a normal person without his mask on- so I'd have to pretend he was normal and friendly during that time mostly during the day. Then, I would keep watch out my window once sun set. Then, he would be Jason again.

Then I had another one where I was hanging with my dad and he was having a good time. We were watching breakdancers. He was ACTUALLY talking and excited about something. Then, he left; drove away in his car.

Dream in Jamaica

From 3/25/10

My dreams have been pretty weird. Last night there was this weird elevator coming from the Northside Tavern basement going up.

It was a one person elevator. It shot you up to the top ground level and it had neon lights.

From 9/14/09

I just dreamt I was in Russia w/ Molly from work. Claudia was there too. I was there and I loved it. It was very diverse; a notable black population. Everyone in my hostel where I was staying was real nice. We went on a bus ride or something through the "city" but for some reason there was a beach. We were standing on the beach. I saw this little black child inside this beach-side apartment. The tide kept getting closer to the apt, and it ended up flooding the apt. The boy just got towels and started to clean it up. he was wiping off DVDs. I offered to help but we had to leave. When we got back to St. Peter's square* there were mass tunnels. We could go thorugh under the square and they connected everything. A few boys were real nice to me and wanted to hang. I remember taking a lot of pix and getting a lot of texts and texting Ciera and Leah. Then me and Molly went to a thrift store to find something to wear for a game thing we were in - I dunno if it was baseball or what- but the store was closing and I found this jersey type thing that had dinosaurs and pandas on it. But it didn't fit. I ripped a hole in it then found a jacket. Then Claudia was working at the thrift store. She told me about this Halloween shirt she loved/used to own. She gave it to me cuz the store was closing. We went back to the hostel to go somewhere else. Claudia tells me she's able to hang with us. The boy was flirting with me. Rebecca was there. The Dr. Seuss building** was extremely bright and beautiful but missing cones because of renovation of course.




*The place is actually Red Square in Moscow, but in my dream, everyone kept calling it St. Peter's Square.



**The Dr. Seuss Building is referring to St. Basil's Cathedral. It's interesting to me that in my dream everyone was calling it SAINT Peter's Square, not RED Square, but the building that I couldn't directly the remember the name of is SAINT Basil's Cathedral. I think that was my subconscious trying to work out the name in my dream.

green grass pen

(I don't have an entry date for this one)

Like Frid 13th

@camp w/ Shabrelle

Stole escalade driving from

library? Get pulled over

by "cop" who takes us into

talk to us abt Jason

copycat killer

cop was black and disabled

-invited us in for coffy

and we leave-real scared

abt going back to camp

(This entry was written as I was fighting to stay awake long enough to write it; and then I fell back asleep. There are mass scribble impressions on the page like I couldn't get the pen to work. It's a real shitty green pen; it makes my handwriting look real psycho too. I tried to mimmick the way I wrote it out on the page as best I could.)

scholarly ties

Dreamt:

Elizabeth or Berta was dating Herman and it pissed me off. It was my bday. There was a party. Jessica Bradstreet was there and got me a present.

(8/26/09)

a poem I wrote: 7/12/09

There it goes

out the window

down the drain

under your shoe

There it goes

leaping from my chest

caught in my eye

splattered on your hands

There it goes

making my cuts deeper

my future bleeker

I don't want another friend

Lobster Island

From last night:

Dreamt that my parents bought the house right next to Sheli's.  It was a huge house, but it wasn't in the nieghborhood that Sheli lives in now.  The house was a bluish gray with white trim.  We were moving in and I got really pissed off at my folks for buying a house right next door to my friend.  I didn't want them to live there and be so close to one of my good friends.  At one point, I was driving with my dad to this place called Lobster Island and I was in a horrible mood.  My dad got annoyed with me and was being kind of a jerk to me as well.  We got to where Lobster Island was and we had to get in a boat to get to the island. It was in the water and it was an inflatable house, like one for kids, but there was a restaurant and game place inside.  When I got there, my family was there and so was Sheli.  It made me even madder that they invited her.  Then Jayme showed up with Rory and Jon Konkol.  Jayme was dressed in purple and her hair was crimped with huge bows in it. I just sat there on the bench and sulked.  Jon Konkol came over to sit by me and I woke up.

Another Jamaican Dream

Just woke up from a dream about Jamaica. The whole premise of the dream is kind of bleary. I was with my whole family and we were driving around. We were staying in these hotels but I didn't really want to stay with them. At one point i was just with my dad waiting on the side of the road (I think just waiting for my mom and the rest of the family to pick us up) and we were outside of this fruit stand. This guy I knew from high school was there, this guy I used to work with, and he was holding this cell phone that he had jerry rigged in the most ridiculous way. He put a rubber band around it to hold it together, attached a bouquet of flowers to it and he put a phone dial on it too. I thought it was hilarious and I took a picture of it. As we are standing by the side of the road, this one taxi comes up past us and he slows down like hes going to pick up 2 of the Jamaicans standing by us, but he says something to the girl that is standing there and shoves her as hes driving past. I remember being sick in the dream and wanting to go to Jamaica for therapy. In the dream, I was trying to figure out how long I had been there in the past year. On this trip, I think it was for a couple weeks. I wanted to stay there forever.

Dreams or Reality TV

From 6/23/09

I dreamt last night that Russ came to DJ with me and when he came to my house, he was with a camera crew of a show like on MTV or something. It was pretty funny. They followed me around as I got ready. At one point, I was putting on make up in the mirror and Russ was sitting next to me while we were talking. The lights from the camera crew were really bright and I could see them through the reflection on the mirror. Russ was wearing a bomber jacket with skinhead stuff on it and I was wearing a blue dress. Also in the dream, Clara and I broke into Greg's house. He was really drunk and his wife was super mad. I didn't even get to the show I was supposed to DJ because I woke up.

On top of Mt. Rumke

This one is from 1/26/09:

Friday night I had an impromptu party and that night I dreamt about Mt. Rumpke becoming so tall and out of control with garbage that it collapsed and fell on a neighborhood. Me and my mom and dad went to check it out and the houses and fences were knocked out/down by heaps of trash. My dad was sifting through it and was talking about what he found while I was having a breakdown over the fact that plastic bags don't decompose and they're there forever! Then I noticed right by the collapsed fence there were two brownish grey mushrooms growing due to the decay of the garbage. They were real big and nasty looking; real tall and skinny and oozing liquid.

The week before, I had a dream that I was in (Alice's) Wonderland and it was night but also real soft-glowy and hazy. The Cheshire cat was smiling down at me from the moon. 2 days after the dream, I got a card in the mail from my friend Clara that was shaped like Alice! In the card she told me how much she loves me. (While typing that, Derrick Morgan sang, "if you knew how much I love you baby, you wouldn't hesitate"). By Clara's name and address on the envelope, she put a sticker of the Cheshire cat! Insanity because the day she sent the card, I had the dream that night.

Dream blogging

This blog is meant to be a collaboration and artistic creation between myself, Stacey, and my artistic companion David. My subconscious has been extremely active in the past couple years. I have been doing my best to document my dreams in as much detail as I possibly can. Sometimes I wake up and there are only scribbles and words trailed off into oblivion on my journal page, but most are in impeccable detail. Even the squirrelly entries interest me because of the priority I decide to give some aspects of each dream over the next. Additionally, the way I end up relaying my dream on paper also allows me to interpret what has happened by the means I choose to express each event. Hopefully, it all turns out cohesive.

**Just a note on the dates. I'm going back and writing old entries kind of at random so some have dates and some don't. Some I will be adding as I go along so the date will be the posting date.